Life is So Unsafe

When you have a friend
When you have a lover
But no one listened
You know you'll suffer

Through life's ups and downs
Through trails that were never there
Through the tears and the frowns
Still, nobody cared

Sometimes you just have to face it
This life is a joke
Everything that you ever built
It will be revoked

Your heart will get broken
Your mind will go insane
Everybody is outspoken
They make you feel the pain

They tell you they'll be there
When really they only feel sorry
Or they're keeping you a spare
When they need to tell their story

This life is so unsafe
God is the only one
Who won't leave you afraid
But the people-- theres none

`Fsf

A Love--Never ended

From the start-- she knew he'd escape
From the love-- that he turned into scrape
From the pain-- she could not take
From the ache-- that she forgave

And the love-- it all but gone
And the hurt-- it multiplied to ton
And the memories-- they both foregone
Do they miss each other? Off and On

The love-- it was so deep
So much of it-- it made them weep
Like a puzzle-- they were complete
So much alike-- we think they're creeps

But now-- it's all in the past
But now-- their lives are messed
But now-- they moved on so fast
And now-- nobody asked

`Fsf

Am I All Alone Today?

I used to cry when I'm lonely, I was lonely because I never found anyone beside me. Now it's different, I cry because everyone's around but no one understands. This tottaly makes me feel alone.

I'm stronger today than I was yesterday, but I'm still weak today, not as weak as I was yesterday though. I like complicating myself so I would understand what the people around me are complicated about.

I must be too complicating for others to understand. In my mind I feel like I'm so simple and generally an open book, but do people even bother to read my book?

It scares me so much to see that the closest people to me don't get me. This does make me question myself. Am I hanging out with the right group of people?

Am I the only one in this planet who feels that way? Or is it so normal to be put down by the person I love the most? Or are all the people I love the most against me? Am I wrong? Or am I not wrong?

Sometimes I even feel like I'm not treated as a lady. Sometimes the softer, weaker side of me is not being respected, but instead it's almost always taken for granted.

But thank you God for always listening to my prayers<3

Relieve Stress Instantly!

Everybody gets stressed! Being a human being is STRESSFUL!

(Based on my own experience) Here are TEN things that have worked well FOR ME:

Number One:

Easy! Just take DEEP BREATHS!

Number Two:

Stop eating fast! You don't want to stress your digestive system.. IT DOES NOT FEEL GOOD!

Number Three:

Read! Whatever that interests you: a story, a magazine, or even a blog (MY BLOG!)

If you still can't find something interesting, you just must read a Holy book:) take that tip from me, it helps a LOT!

Number Four:

Exercise at least ten minutes each other day. Or 20 minutes only 3 times a week!

If you're too lazy just try exercising for at least a minute each day.. then you'll feel like wanting more!

OR you can even try yoga/ Mindfulness exercises: focusing on your own body, your own thoughts, your own present.

Number Five:

Practice your hobby! I like drawing when I'm stressed, it calms me down, and keeps me patient.

Number Six:

Scream and shout it out!

Shout out loud whatever you want to say to yourself or you could even sing it in a rhythm!

Number Seven:

Talk it out.. Talk to a friend.. or even talk to yourself! (you understand yourself better that's why it always feels good)

Number Eight:

Fake a smile or Fake a laugh.. It actually tricks your mind to make you happy! Be positive and laugh about everything that sounds a bit funny!

Number Nine:

Drink Green Tea! Or Jasmine Tea! They both work perfectly AHH i'll go have one right now!

Number Ten:

Sleep 7-8 hours each day! Adjust a specific time to sleep and wake up exactly the same each day.. and feel the difference!

I'm Being Anti-social!

I don't know what is wrong with me.. I used to be the most talkative person in the world. Having long conversations with people used to be my thing, my title. BUT NOT ANYMORE.

I do not know if this would go away and whether I'll get back to normal or not, it must be okay to be anti-social for a few days.. but for MONTHS?! Heh I'm not sure.

WHAT IT FEELS LIKE:
I literally ignore most of the people who talk to me. I just am not in the mood to speak or answer those stupid questions. Everyone around me seems stupid or rude. Sometimes I even feel like I'm the nicest person alive, and being nice means to shut the fu** up unless I had something nice to say.

WHERE ARE THE GOOD PEOPLE? definitely not in my world?! But this had taught me when to reply to rude comments.. and to ignore most of the immature and annoying people.

Alright, I think I should end this positively: I do believe that things do get better by time, and we all go through times when we're not ourselves. In the end, all heartaches heal like all wounds we get but then suddenly forget about. Everything eventually gets better.. because this is life, its filled with ups and downs, we just got to be strong enough to get up when we fall.

Ebola Who?

The reason why I'm actually writing about something that we hear everyday is because all I know about “Ebola” is that it reminds me of President Obama's face. I even once thought that it was a bomb!

What is Ebola?

Ebola is a deadly virus that has started in West Africa and it is said that it is powerful enough to kill all the human population. (But that won't happen)

Ebola has started killing people since February 2014 and so far it had killed more than 3000 people and still there is no cure. It basically kills a person's immune system which leads to fever, headache, muscle pain, and even internal bleeding. The US government is helping to find a cure to this deadly virus in different ways.

How did Ebola start to spread?

People believe that only one person was infected and then passed it to another. This one person could have caught a disease from a forest animal, and this is by eating bush meat (it is the meat of wild forest animals in Africa like bats, birds, and even monkeys!). WHY ARE THEY KILLING MONKEYS FOR FOOD ='( I'D RATHER DIE HUNGRY!

Is it True?

Some other people think that Ebola is a conspiracy(an evil plan) made by the US government so they'd convince the citizens of Africa to take poisonous vaccines and after they all die, the US would take over Africa and all its goods. WOULD YOU BELIEVE THAT? I personally don't believe this sh** because the US government is putting so much effort to help cure the patients of Ebola.  

Voices in My Head!

You hear those voices in your head?

Haven't you ever asked yourself what is responsible of them?

Don't they sometimes bother you?

Personally, I find them annoying... but they sometimes get me laughing all by myself making other people's little voices say “That sick bit**”

Those voices in our head come from our memory (obviously)

they're called “Sound Memories”

For example:

Say that sentence out loud then say it again in your head:

“Mommy! Mommy! I found a little bug!”

Isn't the sentence you said out loud familiar to how you said it in your mind? It's all part of our memory.

I'll sum it up this way: our brain acquires language and after that it practices it all the time.

One research says: “The human auditory system is capable of 'replaying' sound memories, which is what happens whenever you think of any sound you've heard, including when you "say" something in your head.”

but sometimes there are two voices, or even more!

There are still a lot of research going around this topic but after reading few researches online I figured out that because those two voices are always arguing with themselves (ps. All the voices are you speaking), they definitely mean that we tend to have internal conflicts to figure things out. Human beings are known to be very curious creatures, so we tend to ask ourselves so many questions (whatever subject it was about).

I used to think that one voice was the angel telling me something and the other voice came from the devil.. since they're usually positive and negative thoughts. But after I researched I actually got convinced that it was just me arguing with myself.

Look Through My Soul..

People judge us by our faces, as if we had no souls, as if there were no hearts, and not a brain to use wisely.

So I'm beautiful if I had Angelina Jolie's face and Kim Kardashian's body? Wouldn't I be beautiful if I had a big caring heart and a lovely personality?

Discrimination exists almost all over the world, and has spread even more than the last decades. People wouldn't only judge us based on our faces but also on our race and/or religion, but who are they to judge?

The real judgement happens in the day of resurrection and of course this is the only judgement that we should worry about, but by the time being let us just try to fix a little bit of what we've tarnished in this world.

Let us try to clean our souls and focus on what's inside rather than pointing out flaws in people's faces, because it is natural that we all want to look beautiful on the outside as well and this is why each and every one of us had already noticed their flaws and we're definitely not in need for another person to point out something that could be seen by the eyes and on reflections, it just sounds ridiculous!

How about we be smart and try to see things that cannot be seen by the eyes but can be felt by the heart. Why don't we challenge ourselves to find and notice things about each other that are not in the face or the body but in the soul, the mind, and the heart.

Maybe focus on how much you laugh with a person and enjoy their sense of humor instead of finding out whether they have white teeth or stained teeth. Maybe embrace a person's generosity and try to benefit from the purity of their souls rather than look at what brands they carry and their taste in clothes. Maybe love a person for the kindness of their hearts and their beautiful souls rather than loving them for their pretty faces and incredible makeup.

Why do we all like to act like each other, who would then correct us when we're all doing the same mistake? Maybe this is one reason why I sat and thought about this topic because there are things that we all do and nobody notices. Try to be unique in every good way you can because in the end we're not put here, in this world, to please and impress the human beings because we're all put in this world to please God, he's the only one who would judge us and he would not judge us by how we look.

Realizing What Life is.

I AM BACK!

     I came back to talk a little bit more about myself. It is true that I am just another teenager, but I just have a lot going in my mind. I have been thinking about my future much, I have set many many plans and goals that I cannot wait to achieve. When I say that to people, usually those older than me, they'd tell me that I'm rushing and that I'm still too young, but I think that it is just the right time!

     I am now still 16 years old, I feel like this year had been the longest year for me so far. I'm going to turn 17 in just 72 days, which is in 2 months and 12 days. YES I've been counting the days! I really want 16 to end because I'm desperately looking forward to change a lot of things in my life right after graduation which will be a week after my birthday, and I chose that time because it is when I'll finally be independent. Yes, I want 16 to end but I love 16 because it had taught me a lot about myself, a lot about my friends, and a lot about my family. I have noticed that a lot of things are not going the way they should, so here is where I thought I should step in and make a change.

     First, and most importantly, me. My past, present and future are all affecting me in one way or another. My past is the creepiest of them all because it is still haunting me. There is just something in my mind that keeps reminding me of the past. How everything was so perfect: I had a beautiful family and I basically was granted what ever I had wished for, then the present comes in and says "well, not anymore!" My mother is no longer here, my father is no longer as rich as he was, and well.. my sisters... They're just like me. I know that things are getting better but not yet the best and that's when I stepped in and said "I have hope that the future is going to be the best!"

     I used to be very ignorant and maybe a little shy that I did not realize what was going on around me, but there's just something out there that made me change the bad stuff about me and made me realize who I really am. Maybe after all the bad experiences, I learned to be myself and most importantly, be generous. Maybe a lot of people, even the closest ones to me, haven't noticed any change, but I have because I finally know what I want to achieve and I finally set a goal.

     Second, friends friends friends. I am very blessed to have those great people around me, now I know who the real friends are, and yay I'm so happy I have them in my life! Like any other person, I have many friends, but it takes time and patience to figure out who the real ones are. It takes time to realize who are the ones that are trustworthy and worthy, I had to go through lots of trouble to find out that yes that friend stood with me till the end and the other one didn't even care. It takes patience to get over the ones that cheat on you and disappoint you, most of those turn out to be "the popular backstabbers", but even after all this, you should know that no matter what happens, and no matter what people say about you, the real friends will stay forever. Till eternity.

     Last and definitely not least, FAMILY. I just thank god every single day that I have them around. I have my father who have always put so much effort to make us happy, my sisters who never leave my side no matter what, and my tiny brothers that never fail to make me smile. After all what this family had been through, I have learned that no matter what, no matter where, no matter why, they are and will always be the most precious thing I have and they must always come first whether I like it or not. They know my bright side and my dark side but they never leave my side. I love them.

     Life gives you two choices: either to live happily or depressingly. You chose. We all go through problems and tragedies but shit happens and its up to us whether to flush that shit away and all the other shits that come after it, or leave the shit and all the other shits and wait for life to stink.